bye bye 2010

the last couple of days of 2010....

what did this year give me????? a new environemnt; office and home both changed... so did the darling palio; love you baby and hope you're in loving hands now as well. the handsome new car's fun to drive.

mintu baby started school and thank god she loves it there.... i got an anual award for domain excellence, my first in servion and am happy for it... pretty eventful year when i think back

now what will 2011 bring for me? point is what do i want.... if i know and want it hard enough it'll manifest... but gotta think whats it i want.... think vishu, think....

search...

The telephone, chat n facebook, a home address and an e-mail id

Roads so many
The destination one
Just so much loves' yours
Still, the search is always on

Break these shackles
And set me free
What’s mine shall remain
My share of love’ll come to me…

..... another from 'the amateur to the amateur'

of dressing and admiration...

i wore a saree to office after ages.... and a hot red one at that :)

i was so embarrassed, i could die but the complements were good and somewhere inside it made me feel nice he he he

beauty is so linked to being slim that i've stopped believing i can look good anymore now that i've put on weight..... gotta reduce... will too.... June 9th 2011... here i come....

hey pal...

its so easy to speak to you..... if i can reach you that is....

from Einstein

"gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love" :)

goodbye mama

miracle there was... murali mama was alive for more than 36 hours after the ventilator was taken off. we were told it would not be more than half an hour....

he passed away at 10.30 in the night on 30th september. a life full of life ended. hope the afterlife is wonderful for you and may your soul rest in peace

vishakha

moments ticking away

as i write this keshav's uncle is in the icu. bidding a final farewell to life. to the relationships and other material he's gathered in this life...

he's been ailing with cancer for the last few years and has been on the ventilator for the last few days... his body and will giving up on him. the doctors and with the great difficulty the family has taken call to take off the ventilaor. if the universe wishes he will live even without the crutch of life saving devices...

i'm counting moments mama... and willing a miracle

the timing on my blog is wrong... its 1.35 pm on 29th sept'10

'friend'

getting to know someone who i think i can be friends with... its been long since i've connected with someone..... maybe that's why i don't have another real friend in chennai except keshav.

i miss those long chats i used to have with friends of long ago like surekha, taiyab and anita... and wish to revive that with you....

on my part; i hope to be the kind of friend you'd like me to be....

another thought

what is mid-life crisis? is it your body feeling one age and your mind and heart another? but then should it not be called 'pre-mature aging' because you are your mind not your body.....

of love and the 'grand design'

i seem to writing an awful lot about love now-a-days... wonder why....OK but here's something else... read a review of Stephen Hawking's 'the grand design' and the critic wasn't impressed at all. sad. i love the way hawking writes..... but yes the man's one motive i understand is to write best sellers that sell at airport bookstalls so i guess you can't write quantum physics like quantum physics....

but coming back to the subject.... that the universe has no and needs no intelligence... its all about the laws of physics and chemistry... I'm finding this hard to digest... especially now after feeling that intelligence.

Mr. hawking, i cant wait to read your book... i wonder if it'll shake some foundations... naaahhhh

something more i learned

that love feels the same no matter what your age...16... 36....or 66

my secret place

in school, i stored away little treasures in my drawer under all my clothes where no one could find them.... and now i have this blog to put all my thoughts away... am lucky no one has found it yet :)

i wonder.....

isn't this whole trust thing too overrated in love?

learnt from life...

that you cannot own someone's feelings, love and sexuality.... the only thing that can bind another to you is their freedom...

learnt from life....

that your children teach you that love can be one-sided... and complete

a wiff of romance...

have started watching a new series (!!) on television... the director and the lead pair seem to know what hearts are made of and how to pull at heart strings.....i've never seen romance portrayed so beautifully on screen, neither big nor small...

feels like the passion could put the television on fire sometimes...

congratulations team.... and taking away no credit from the entire cast; but the master of this game is Gurmeet, Maan Singh Khurana in the serial... the man's made for bigger things and hope all that comes his way....

something i wrote...

The gate open and inviting I gazed at Eden before me
Then I turned back and saw flowers as far as I could see
So I’ll remain in my garden, you remain in yours
And if the yen gets too hard to hold
We’ll come to the fence and admire the flowers

- an amateur to an amateur

:)

Figuring out… intelligence helps… not mine but the universe’s. Thank you Mr. Deepak Chopra and Ms. Rhonda Byrne for helping me discover this. Most times this knowledge eludes me…. But when I can touch it…. there’s magic.
1st June 2010… like rebirth….life changed and I owe it to the two of you…I now know God..have felt the power and I know God is nothing like I’ve thought of before. There is no good or bad no right or wrong… it’s just power of the universe that flows through everything…

another one of those days....

ah...another one of those days when the mind is troubled.... you know the reason but you wont accept....and to add to it this stupid habit of mine to try looking for an intellectual solution for an emotional problem.... feel like speaking to Liam....

So typical of me to rest in hibernation for almost a year and wake up suddenly to figure out I had not a single new post on my blog. Nothing greatly interesting happening today; just a lovely thought I read; so I'm going to start a new section on my blog called: "Thoughts; mine and theirs" and post all the lovely thoughts I hear